Mother's Day thoughts

Mother's Day was special for me this year. Knowing that baby #2 was on the way filled me with mixed emotions. There's a unique maternal feeling that thrives when you know there's a life growing inside of you. I'm humbled and excited as I anticipate the opportunity to mother another little one in the coming months. I've never felt more in my element than I do right now, with one on my hip and one in my belly. However, along with the excitement of looking forward to the big change that's about to occur in our family, there is also a part of me that is mourning the loss of how things are right now. Avery has been my one and only for two years and it's hard to imagine having to share the mothering part of my heart and my life with someone else. Erich and I were discussing this with some great friends the other night and Bruce, the father of two grown girls, said something that will always stick with me... "When your circumstances change, so does your capacity to love". I know that the moment I lay eyes on that babe, God will do a wonder in my heart and I will suddenly know the joy of loving two children equally and extravagantly. Until then, I'm soaking in every moment with Avery. Cuddling, reading the same books a hundred times a day, singing every disney princess song, laughing, going on walks... all of the things we've always done, but now I'm paying a little more attention and holding her a little tighter. These thoughts were going through my mind on Mother's Day as I cherished the present and looked forward to the future. I've never felt so sure of God's purpose for me as I do when I'm being Erich's wife and Avery's mother. It's still sinking in that I get the joy of doing this all again with baby Piland. It was a Happy Mother's Day, indeed.